In the playoff years of '84, '89, and '89 I was heartbroken. In '03, I was furious. In '07, I was kind of pissed but expecting it. This '08 playoff experience.....I just feel numb. Like everyone else, this is probably the most successful Cubs team I have ever witnessed. I had a nervous anticipation for postseason ever since they clinched on that Sunday against the Cardinals. It kept on building and building up until Wednesday when Loney hit that grand slam. I knew that at that moment that this was not the year.