I'm SICK..I'm just crying..seriously I am crying -- The Red Sox are part of my psyche since I was 3 years old and could remember wanting to play hardball. They said I couldn't cuz i was a girl, so I said I want to be a rabbi instead --- 1953 -- Nope they said can't do that so this little girl had to be satisfied watching from the bleachers...the two stories have no relation except my heart was and is broken -- The Red Sox, our beloved Red Sox -- I wore a Red Sox uniform to sleep when I was a kid. Boston my loved to the core Boston--I LOVE that city and this state SO much I would not care if it seceded from a union that does not work for me and so many others. So I am sad on many levels. I never became a rabbi, I never got to play baseball and now now again my heart is down to my toes as my country sinks to the bottom fast and elects a president I thought was going to be FDR -- FAR from it. I prayed this am.. I never pray not because it's Rosh Hashanna, the Jewish high holiday, maybe that is unique but I just prayed because I am SO sad. Life's dreams get shattered and you don't know why except maybe god if there is one has other plans! Please god can't you choose me to be on the lucky team just ONCE -- only once. Lucky are they who strike life's lottery. I didn't and the clock is running out on my game. If not now when?