I just can't feel angry anymore when we lose. I just feel sorry for Ronny who dies a little bit with every loss, but has to sit and watch and call the game for the team he loves. I feel sorry for the players that are great people like Ryan Dempster who are going to be taking the losses so hard, even though he got hit in the hip with a line drive and hasn't pitched in a save situation since May 30th. But mostly, I just feel depressed. When the Cubs were up tonight, and coming back it was such an incredible release of happiness, and then when they let the game roll between their legs it just reversed all emotion and doubled it. I'm past the point of anger. I just want the Cubs to win a couple games.