I was in a weird spot where I loved the process they were going through of building a perennial winner from the ground up, but I didn't enjoy actually watching them play baseball. I'd sit at work and click around Fangraphs pretty much daily, check the minor league posts religiously, see how all the contracts lined up on Cots, etc....but then I'd get home from work and have absolutely no interest in watching like...Chris Volstad or something. I understood the process, but the byproduct was in no way appealing to me. Part of that was probably just my personality...every sports game I got I always gravitated towards picking the worst team to start a franchise with and seeing how quickly I could turn it around, and so it was cool to watch it happen in real life. But I was also the guy who would simulate months at a time to get to the trade deadline/free agency/etc. yeah, that was basically me too...except i didn't love the process they were going through. following the minors like crazy was the one thing that kept me following the team on a daily basis, but i was never pro tank. of course, they pulled it off at a level beyond anything anyone could've expected or imagined. i knew theo was good and for years he was who i wished was our GM when he was in boston, but even with that being the case, i didn't think he could do something like this and hit on draft picks at the rate they did. that said, i never questioned if i actually liked baseball anymore. i knew that when it got good again i'd be beyond all in. kind of a crazy thought to me that people with thousands of posts on this board could question whether they actually liked baseball/the cubs (rather than the obvious fact that they just didn't like that the cubs were awful.)