This loss was so predictable. After our rally and getting a 3 run lead, I told my g/f to watch the bullpen blow it all away the next inning, just like they did in the Phillies series. They did, just like clockwork. My g/f is new to Cubs fandom. She's kind of on the bandwagon by default just for living with me, poor girl. She screams and cusses at the players all the time. It's really comical. Then she gets mad at me for not getting mad too. I just tell her I'm used to it. Same team, different year. Things will never change. For all intents and purposes, I think I might be done this year too. For the first time in my 19 years of Cub fandom, I don't care about this team in any way shape or form. I've already quit scheduling my day around getting home in time to watch the game. I just don't care anymore. I don't even bother checking the scores on games I do miss half the time. This team is like being in a bad long term relationship. You know you're better off without them, but it's hard to just let go after putting so much into it for so many years. Either way leaves you feeling numb and unhappy. I'll never quit being a fan, I'm just done with them on an emotional level. If they win fine, lose fine. I don't care. They're not going anywhere this year.